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Sunday, December 22, 2013

Coming to Terms

I certainly haven't felt like writing since Thanksgiving, due to an increase in torment and the need to tend other matters. Finally, a new idea, a doctor visit and a gift from a friend has sparked some relief. I realized that I also needed to be more mindful of things that increased my pain, rather than constantly trying to push myself past it, because-it just was not happening. My first new golden rule: Thou shalt not sit on thy buns for longer than thirty minutes or so(and I have discovered that no chair I possess is adequate for forestalling torment). Now for the muscle spasms which arise from sustained positions: How about a super duper modified massage device that gets results in a very short amount of time? Main Product ImageOoooh baby-Here we go! I took this little rascal in the picture above, put the foam pad on it, plugged the sucker up, and applied it to my back, buns and legs with a folded old dishtowel in between as an added buffer-And-the results were amazing! Spasm locked muscles undone in record time..aaaaah. I have been doing this several times a day since..Thursday. My friend gave me some Biofreeze to try as well, and between the two, plus chair avoidance-my days are getting ever so much better! For the increasingly contentious attitude and the loss of sleep due to continuing spasms at night, I broke down and went to see a doctor...with good luck there too!(So far, but I'm paranoid since I have had SO many negative results from SO many pharmaceuticals) I'm currently experimenting with a small dose of Ativan at bed time, and..snicker.. on high alert for signs of negative effects-such as weakness and alopecia among others. I cannot say that I will take a pill faithfully every night before I try to get some sleep. If I'm feeling good, I forget all about it. If I wake up in pain, I'll decide the nights almost over and thus it is too late to take one because I don't want to suffer any mental impairment from such a thing during my day. So far, I have tried it a couple of nights and-I still wake up in pain, but it is after five good hours of sleep rather than two not so good hours, and I have been able to go back to sleep rather than just resigning myself to getting up and moving around. My next mission is a 4 inch memory foam mattress topper for the Serta Perfect Sleeper. I hope this solves the night pain. I would love to know exactly why all of this is happening to me, but that is something that just keeps getting pushed aside. Hmph! So, I will live in a mystery and pursue relief without a firm declaration of the cause. So be it. I am still wretchedly cranky, so before I rant about the tests I have had and the tests I haven't had, I think I'll stop and take the dog for a walk. I will also utter many silent prayers that I don't lock up like the Tin Man while holding my eighteen pound grand daughter when she gets here today, and hope I last through her visit which will be until after Christmas. Joy! Thank God for the Black & Decker Mouse!

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